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Project 50 #26/50
Visually nothing has really changed in these 26 days. My weight has remained precisely consistent. My hair hasn’t changed. Maybe I slouch a little less, but honestly, you’d have to go looking hard to see a difference between Kirill 26 days ago and me today.…
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Project 50 #25/50
Even though I have a mother, I frequently felt alone and abandoned as a child. She had to work a lot, my father was out of the picture, being on my own was the norm. Inescapable, chronic childhood loneliness is a bane on our society.…
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Project 50 #24/50
I’ve been a director/COO for about three years now and one of the things that I used to pride myself on is being one with the troops most of the time and wearing my COO hat only when things require it. The now obvious problem…
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Project 50 #23/50
I think this is going to be my last post on instagram as part of the project 50 journaling series. I now enjoy journaling. Sitting down and writing down an event, a thought or an idea, exploring it, thinking through it feels amazing and irreplaceable…
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Project 50 #22/50
I was never really into fiction or novels, of course, as a child, I had my fling with Harry Potter and some traditional russian books, but even at 10, 12 and so on, my favourite books were non-fiction. Self-education and learning books were exciting and…
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Project 50 #21/50
It’s been a month since me and a buddy of mine have started working out together on the weekends. He’s got many years of boxing practice behind him, however has stopped doing it pretty recently. So naturally this was a great opportunity for him to…
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Project 50 #20/50
I’ve been toying with ChatGPT for a few days now and it’s been nothing short of breathtaking. I’ve played with chat bots before, I know how convincing they can be. But this is different. World shakingly different. I don’t want to be all doom and…
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Project 50 #19/50
Third and last day in Stockholm for a while. I’m very eager to get back home and back in my “comfy” routine. That’s so weird to think about. I’m constantly under stress, my physical and psychological output is at least double what I output here,…
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Project 50 #18/50
What a day! Stockholm trips are always special, as seeing faces you’re used to working with in 3d, instead of through a screen is a little jarring. We interact differently through computers and it’s always great to meet people irl. Yesterday was extra special for…
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Project 50 #17/50
Traveling today. I’m gonna be in Stockholm for a few days and while these trips never used to bother me, this time feels different. Missing three days of gym gave me anxiety. I’ve already made a plan of things I’m going to do to get…
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Project 50 #16/50
Not feeling like a piece of shit is one of my daily motivators. I remember when I used to weigh around 200kg, my wife had to work harder than me around the house. I was not pulling my load at all. We have a small…
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Project 50 #15/50
It has now been well over a month since my last inactive day. I’ve been in the gym every single day in the month of November and I do not go easy on myself most days. I work out until my T-shirt is soaked with…