Today is the first day in a while I’ve really felt like quitting.
I woke up at the vibration of my 6 am alarm clock on my wrist and everything seemed to be out of rhythm. I never sleep until my alarm clock.
I’m usually awake at least 5 minutes before it and feel fresh as a daisy. Obviously something went wrong tonight.
After waking up I felt like I am late for something, forgot half of my morning routine, didn’t really do anything other than stumble around while getting ready and rushed off to the gym.
My whole body was aching. My shoulders, biceps, lower back. Everything was off. While driving to the gym I felt depleted.
This unfulfilling start to the day was immediately doing emotional damage too. Usually I feel like a winner. I complete several self improvement steps before I leave the house by 6:15, my nervous system is primed for success and for the next 2-3 hours, I consistently do things that are hard, but are good for me.
So by the time I’m done with my morning emails, I would have had a hard workout, learned Swedish, meditated, read a book and had a breakfast full of protein goodness.
How can any day possibly turn out bad if it has such a great start?
That’s how most of my days go. Today was different. One small misstep broke the whole chain and even now I’m still in a slight daze, not really happy with how things are going.
I am very thankful to my son for sleeping during lunch. I went to bed with him and slept for an hour too. I feel better.
Still. No chance I’m failing the project 50 goals!