The rollercoaster of emotions continues. Every day this whole week my I get a zebra stripe of good news and bad news.
I think if I had to write an emotion log journal, I would probably appear bipolar this week.
I keep thinking about how the time a year ago was “the good times” and wondering if life will make me laugh and some time down the line I’ll think of now as the ridiculously good times.
With the tensions in Eastern Europe rising, war, which seemed like a ridiculous idea now feels somewhat more possible.
Thoughts like this are scary, but then again, I was blessed and fortunate to have had the life I got to live so far, billions never had the amazing opportunities I have had and like a dear friend said not long ago: if it all ended tomorrow, I would let it go with gratitude for the great run we had.
It’s a nice thought, right? I meditate on it sometimes, but then something inside of me remembers that line “rage, rage against the dying of the light” from the poem by Dylan Thomas. And some suppressed primal survival feelings light up.
I am grateful that I have yet to be tested in such a situation, because it’s easy keeping composure when things are good.
Checked all the things, studied on codecademy, cycled.
Going to pick up the camera and the lens tomorrow as they have arrived in Riga.
Spoke to my mum for a while today, was really happy to see her well and healthy. She’s been doing carnivore for a while now and it really shows.
Then told my wife about it and she’s up for trying it too. Really excited. I believe if we are going to do it with my wife then we will be able to succeed easily.