Yesterday I drove over 100km to buy a used camera that came out in 2018. Wow, that’s 7 years ago! This camera model is older than my son.
The final decision to go and actually buy it was impulsive.
However there were a lot of deliberations and mental reasoning before that impulse, that desire took over.
I often hesitate to spend on myself, on things I consider fun.
I also often get buyers remorse.
All of these things are part of my worrying, or more correctly anxiety.
Recently I’ve been discovering so many of my personality characteristics take their root in my childhood trauma, which in turn spawns anxiety.
While I have another camera and obviously I have a phone, which has three! Old toys become boring and for years, I’ve been convincing APSC/crop cameras are just as good as full frame ones…
However something inside of me was always curious… Are they really?
While they certainly have their advantages (and I still think the a6700 purchase was correct at the time, when I was taking long distance fast paced sports photography), what I want most of the time is that sweet sweet bokeh behind my subjects.
When I came home, my son was playing chess with my wife.
Couldn’t resist, had to snap.
After the game was over, I was fiddling with the camera, pointing it at everything…
And then in the morning, the next game started and I couldn’t resist myself again.
These photos aren’t art, they aren’t amazing, but they’re precious to me and they wouldn’t exist if I wouldn’t go and get myself another toy yesterday.
So far, the Sony full frame 28-70 kit lens paired with a7iii delivers better bokeh than anything I’ve put on my a6700.
And to put this into perspective, I own epic Sony APSC glass which is twice as expensive as what I paid for the A7iii.
A7III is also bulkier, feels more like a serious workhorse and fits my large hands much better.
For years I’ve been convincing myself of one thing and then one evening I actually tried a cheap old full frame and now I realise how wrong I was.
For my current needs, even with a kit lens, the A7III, even in 2025, absolutely is a better camera.
I’m really happy that I let my impulse to buy this camera win over reason (I really don’t need another camera).
I’m really happy that I am exploring different hobbies and am learning new things.
I’m really happy that even at 36 and with some real achievements behind my back, I truly and sincerely welcome and am excited about starting all over and being the fool.
Curious, what will be my next discovery, what else am I completely wrong about?
