I still struggle daily with some things. Having not had a drink in over three years, alcohol consumption is borderline unfathomable now.
Cigarettes are nowhere near the same feeling of “ridiculous” yet, it’s only been about three months since I’ve last had a smoke. However the desire to have a smoke comes less and less frequently.
I wish I could say the same about sugar, my most difficult of vices.
I can’t hide from sugar. Near enough everything we eat converts into it, so my body will always have to get it in one way or another.
And yet, the way sugar affects our brain remarkably similar to cocaine and other drugs.
So what can I do? Abstain as much as possible, try to stick to keto and pray that my brains rewire eventually.
So far it’s been a challenge. It’s really hard for me to understand this: The days I spent as a carnivore were amongst the best of my life. I felt light, I felt strong, not hungry at all and full of energy constantly.
So why am I resisting this obvious solution. What part of me is holding me back?
I don’t know, I just know it’s always there the second I lose focus, the second I go on autopilot, I suddenly find sugar in my mouth somehow.
It feels hopeless and futile, but I will not give up. As long as I breathe, I will do all I can to beat this.